ABANDONED AGAIN!

Picture: So Blessed, back at Mile 88 beach again. God you are So GOOD!

Well, all I know is that I am exactly where I am suppose to be, and God is doing a mighty work of revival. He has called us people, square pegs, who have spent our life trying to fit into round holes, to this school of circuit riders. We have the most incredible leadership and students here, there is such a variety of personalities and cultures here, and it is so cool. I am in awe that God has allowed me to come here and be with 300 likeminded staff and students. We all have one thing in common, this radical love for Jesus, and this crazy desire to reach lost souls and fulfill the great commission. I am so blessed that God has allowed me to come here, be a part of this, and learn from such phenomenal disciples who walk in incredible obedience to the Lord. I am in awe of God's mercy and grace, I don't deserve this, but here I am.

I constantly feel that Gods eyes are searching the globe for anyone who will turn their attention to Him, even if only for a moment, He reaches down, shows His radical love in such a way that is life altering, and then He consumes you with His desire, and uses your passion to change the world.

I feel God saying “You want to know why I chose you? Because you want to change the world and so do I”.

I love being totally abandoned and totally unequipped for what God is calling me to do! It is true freedom! Following Jesus is so much Fun!

God is God everywhere! The Holy Spirit is moving everywhere and anywhere! It is so awesome!

Action Speaks Louder Than Words

My flesh wars against me every step of the way. The entire process of coming here has been one of surrender. Even now, as I sit here on the plane my mind and my body ache to get on the next plane home as soon as I land. My heart tells me otherwise.

I feel all sorts of emotions surfacing. I really believe, that over the 3 months in Haiti, and the 3 months being home, that Jesus has been carrying the burden of those emotions for me. I think that those emotions, emotions that I could not handle, are now slowly being released back to me, it is now time to process and face the cross I carry. My eyes sting with tears and my heart aches. Jesus, I can’t do this without you, please help me.

I want to see my prayers in motion, to put action to words, let us be the hand and feet of Jesus that seems so scarce in this world. There is nothing more fulfilling than seeing prayers of the broken being answered. Did you know that as a child of God, you can be the answer to the prayers of the weak, the brokenhearted, the orphans, the widows, the captives, the innocent?

Jesus showed us what love really is, sacrifice, He died for us, while we still hated him, so I lay down my life for something that matters, something bigger than myself, for the Kingdom, for eternity. Daily I fight to surrender.

I sit here in the battle against my flesh, against the enemy. Missing my family, knowing that my cross is heavy, but also knowing “…do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength” (Nehemiah 8:10).

During the last church service at home before I departed, the pastor gave out little papers to everyone with the verse Philippians 3:7-11. I didn’t pay much attention to it, I was making sure to get all my last minute fellowship in.

When I got home I read over the verse, I then began to finish reading through one of my Haiti journals, which I have been avoiding (clearly since I was finally doing it hours before leaving), I flipped to the last page and written was, Phillippians 3:7-11,

“But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ – the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.”

Jesus is my passion. The world needs passionate people putting faith into action. I will do my best to live in surrender to Jesus, and put faith into action.

God needs hands and feet on this earth.

Prayer Request
-Finding comfort in Christ
-Wisdom
-Discernment
-More Hunger for the Word.

I am in need of your financial support, please consider giving, that I may be able to continue on this journey.

Thank you and God Bless,

Give by FundRazr on my Facebook Page or cheque by Mail,
Alicia Borsoi
32358 Golden ave
Abbotsford B.C.
V2T 5A9

Excited, Recovered, and Ready to GO Again!

Outline

-Looking for a Label
-Worship?
-I Am Indeed, Weak
-I Hear the Whisper of the Lord
-Thankful God has Chosen Me
-Warrior for Christ: School of Circuit Riders
-Financial Need

Picture: Doing Laundry with Sarah December 2010 MountRais,Haiti. Sarah, 13 years old, and a couple of her female peers do laundry by hand, in the blistering heat, 4 to 5 hours a day for the 60 children living in the orphanage. She tells me she can do it because she knows it makes Jesus happy.


Looking for a Label
What am I looking for? Why is my heart to restless? So unsure. Why are my eyes shifting, searching, untrusting? I came home, to find my label but God wasn't interested in that.

I have found myself for weeks trying to write a blog, trying to journal, anything that will help me to understand my thoughts and emotions, but it has been a battle since being home. I know the Lord desires for me write, He always gives me so much revelation through it and as I sit here, I am so excited to finally, be writing!

I am a little hesitant to share some of the things the Lord has been revealing to me, when I write them down, it looks so radical, so eccentric, but then I think about it, and how God has revealed so much of His Great Love to me, how can I not be radically and eccentrically Excited about it! So here it goes.


Worship?
My heart for worship is growing fast, like a well nourished flower, I am not sure how it happened, but I have a guitar, I am learning, slowly, how to play it, and my heart feels so full every time I begin strumming it. I find myself writing songs, not from my own mind and thoughts, but as I worship, Holy Spirit just comes alive in me, and before I know it there are words on the page. I don’t see myself being part of a worship team in a traditional sense; I don’t know who will play these songs, someone else, or me. The one thing I do know, that has been on my heart for 9 months, is that God is starting a New Song on the earth and I suppose that what I am experiencing, through my journey with Christ, may be a part of that New Song. I thank the Lord, that He allows me to be a part of this.


I Am Indeed, Weak
I know I have said this before, but I am weak, so weak, each day it seems I realize this more, and that has been the best thing that has happened to me. When I can realize my weakness, and set aside my pride, It feels like God lets out a big “sigh” and says “ah, finally, now I can use you”. I really have never found a greater joy in this life, then letting God in, to love me, and use me for His purpose. This concept seems so simple, but I think it is the greatest battle of all; it is a constant surrender to God, so that He can defeat the enemy. Surrender, as it seems, just goes against our desires of the flesh.


I Hear the Whisper of the Lord
The hardest thing for me right now is actually doing what I am about to do, go back to Kona for the School of Circuit Riders. I think it must look pretty glorious from the outside, free to go back to Hawaii and not be stuck in a 9 to 5 job. I wish that was how I felt. My flesh so desires to stay right where I am, in my comfortable house, with all the food and coffee I could want. A job that gives me just enough money to live and treat myself to things I like once in a while. My family is near to me, the friends I have loved for the past 8 years just a short car ride away. I can train and exercise, where I want, when I want, how much I want, whenever I want. It is safe here, despite how the media attempts to scare us into staying in our house. Literally, there is everything that I want here, yet my soul yearns for so much more, and my heart is empty.


Thankful God Has Chosen Me
In my service to the Lord, so far, I have seen too much, know too much, to sit here and stay comfortable, my heart desires so much more. As Christians, we are responsible for what we know, for me to live as I want, would be disobedience, sin, and I would be working against the Kingdom of God, rather than for it.

God is so good, so gracious, and my love for Jesus is literally exploding inside of my chest, my heart has been burning for 3 months, I know Holy Spirit is desperately trying to work through me, if I would only let him. I must deny myself daily, minute by minute, when I do this, I find my life. This is not easy, and I could not do this without my brothers and sisters in Christ.
I am thankful that the Lord allowed me to come and serve Him in my hometown, and although I know I was not perfect, I made mistakes, I can honestly say, that I tried my very best to serve God here, and I do feel that I have done what He has asked me to, and that I can leave here in peace until He allows me to return again.



Warrior for Christ – School of Circuit Riders
I am determined to be a warrior against complacent Christianity, materialism and by taking this step of faith to go to the School of Circuit Riders, I pray that I can be an example to others, so they too will be encouraged to take a step of faith out of their comfort zone.

I am so passionate about fighting injustice and I want to see sex trafficking stopped in my lifetime. Through God’s great love the fight is underway, even in what I was able to be a part of here in my hometown.

What will I be doing at Circuit Riders? Honestly I do not know, sharing the Gospel effectively and intercessory prayer is a couple of the topics covered. I do know that God will be there and He is going to shake our spirits even more and I am so excited about what He will reveal to us. If this is tugging on your heart…come join me it is not too late.

The School of Circuit Riders is a five week Seminar. After this there is an optional 2 week or 2 month outreach. Other possibilities are to go back to your hometown, with brothers and sisters joining you.

Where will God send me? I don’t know, but I do know every place He sends me is with purpose to fight for His Kingdom come, so I say no more to wanting to put a label on myself. And I say yes to taking up my cross, being unlabeled, faceless, weak, poor, hungry, full, joyful, fulfilled, loved and passionate for the only cause I see worth fighting for, to do what I was created to do.

I am determined to pave the way for the King to return, and do my part to fulfill the great commission.

I am in this battle, and it is real, so Please, keep me in your prayers. I have complete faith that prayer paves the way for battle, and your prayers are felt. I remember some of my hardest, darkest moments in Haiti, then for no reason at all, my heart would lighten, I am convinced those were the times your prayers were reaching me.

Here are the Links to 2 promotional videos for the School of Circuit Riders:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7LZIyQ2bV0&feature=player_embedded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdzPAhKQPgI&feature=youtu.be


Financial Need
The intention of writing this blog, is not to ask for money, but we do live in a world that requires money, so I would like to share my needs with you.

My current financial need is $900, this is towards the 5 week seminar. I have bought a one way ticked to Kona, because I don’t want to put a limit on God as I have done in the past. If I am to do an outreach abroad I would need anywhere between $700 and $3500. I will post an update on this when I know.

I am also looking at returning home post lecture, and then doing a Bible Core Course (BCC) school in Switzerland and the Middle East beginning in the fall. If I am to return home, I will be working and fundraising towards this. The approximate cost is $8500.

I am able to do some fundraising in Kona as well. I have such a strong faith that God desires for me to do this, and that I do not need to worry about the finances.
If your heart tells you to give, please do. Your giving echoes in eternity. I commit myself to being a good steward of your giving.

I have created a FundRazr on my facebook page, and will be adding it to this Blog page. Easy online donations can be made that way or Cheques can be mailed to:

Alicia Borsoi
32358 Golden ave
Abbotsford B.C.
V2T 5A9

With Much Love and Joy in Serving Jesus,

Alicia Louisa