-Looking for a Label
-Worship?
-I Am Indeed, Weak
-I Hear the Whisper of the Lord
-Thankful God has Chosen Me
-Warrior for Christ: School of Circuit Riders
-Financial Need
Picture: Doing Laundry with Sarah December 2010 MountRais,Haiti. Sarah, 13 years old, and a couple of her female peers do laundry by hand, in the blistering heat, 4 to 5 hours a day for the 60 children living in the orphanage. She tells me she can do it because she knows it makes Jesus happy.
Looking for a Label
What am I looking for? Why is my heart to restless? So unsure. Why are my eyes shifting, searching, untrusting? I came home, to find my label but God wasn't interested in that.
I have found myself for weeks trying to write a blog, trying to journal, anything that will help me to understand my thoughts and emotions, but it has been a battle since being home. I know the Lord desires for me write, He always gives me so much revelation through it and as I sit here, I am so excited to finally, be writing!
I am a little hesitant to share some of the things the Lord has been revealing to me, when I write them down, it looks so radical, so eccentric, but then I think about it, and how God has revealed so much of His Great Love to me, how can I not be radically and eccentrically Excited about it! So here it goes.
Worship?
My heart for worship is growing fast, like a well nourished flower, I am not sure how it happened, but I have a guitar, I am learning, slowly, how to play it, and my heart feels so full every time I begin strumming it. I find myself writing songs, not from my own mind and thoughts, but as I worship, Holy Spirit just comes alive in me, and before I know it there are words on the page. I don’t see myself being part of a worship team in a traditional sense; I don’t know who will play these songs, someone else, or me. The one thing I do know, that has been on my heart for 9 months, is that God is starting a New Song on the earth and I suppose that what I am experiencing, through my journey with Christ, may be a part of that New Song. I thank the Lord, that He allows me to be a part of this.
I Am Indeed, Weak
I know I have said this before, but I am weak, so weak, each day it seems I realize this more, and that has been the best thing that has happened to me. When I can realize my weakness, and set aside my pride, It feels like God lets out a big “sigh” and says “ah, finally, now I can use you”. I really have never found a greater joy in this life, then letting God in, to love me, and use me for His purpose. This concept seems so simple, but I think it is the greatest battle of all; it is a constant surrender to God, so that He can defeat the enemy. Surrender, as it seems, just goes against our desires of the flesh.
I Hear the Whisper of the Lord
The hardest thing for me right now is actually doing what I am about to do, go back to Kona for the School of Circuit Riders. I think it must look pretty glorious from the outside, free to go back to Hawaii and not be stuck in a 9 to 5 job. I wish that was how I felt. My flesh so desires to stay right where I am, in my comfortable house, with all the food and coffee I could want. A job that gives me just enough money to live and treat myself to things I like once in a while. My family is near to me, the friends I have loved for the past 8 years just a short car ride away. I can train and exercise, where I want, when I want, how much I want, whenever I want. It is safe here, despite how the media attempts to scare us into staying in our house. Literally, there is everything that I want here, yet my soul yearns for so much more, and my heart is empty.
Thankful God Has Chosen Me
In my service to the Lord, so far, I have seen too much, know too much, to sit here and stay comfortable, my heart desires so much more. As Christians, we are responsible for what we know, for me to live as I want, would be disobedience, sin, and I would be working against the Kingdom of God, rather than for it.
God is so good, so gracious, and my love for Jesus is literally exploding inside of my chest, my heart has been burning for 3 months, I know Holy Spirit is desperately trying to work through me, if I would only let him. I must deny myself daily, minute by minute, when I do this, I find my life. This is not easy, and I could not do this without my brothers and sisters in Christ.
I am thankful that the Lord allowed me to come and serve Him in my hometown, and although I know I was not perfect, I made mistakes, I can honestly say, that I tried my very best to serve God here, and I do feel that I have done what He has asked me to, and that I can leave here in peace until He allows me to return again.
Warrior for Christ – School of Circuit Riders
I am determined to be a warrior against complacent Christianity, materialism and by taking this step of faith to go to the School of Circuit Riders, I pray that I can be an example to others, so they too will be encouraged to take a step of faith out of their comfort zone.
I am so passionate about fighting injustice and I want to see sex trafficking stopped in my lifetime. Through God’s great love the fight is underway, even in what I was able to be a part of here in my hometown.
What will I be doing at Circuit Riders? Honestly I do not know, sharing the Gospel effectively and intercessory prayer is a couple of the topics covered. I do know that God will be there and He is going to shake our spirits even more and I am so excited about what He will reveal to us. If this is tugging on your heart…come join me it is not too late.
The School of Circuit Riders is a five week Seminar. After this there is an optional 2 week or 2 month outreach. Other possibilities are to go back to your hometown, with brothers and sisters joining you.
Where will God send me? I don’t know, but I do know every place He sends me is with purpose to fight for His Kingdom come, so I say no more to wanting to put a label on myself. And I say yes to taking up my cross, being unlabeled, faceless, weak, poor, hungry, full, joyful, fulfilled, loved and passionate for the only cause I see worth fighting for, to do what I was created to do.
I am determined to pave the way for the King to return, and do my part to fulfill the great commission.
I am in this battle, and it is real, so Please, keep me in your prayers. I have complete faith that prayer paves the way for battle, and your prayers are felt. I remember some of my hardest, darkest moments in Haiti, then for no reason at all, my heart would lighten, I am convinced those were the times your prayers were reaching me.
Here are the Links to 2 promotional videos for the School of Circuit Riders:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7LZIyQ2bV0&feature=player_embedded
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdzPAhKQPgI&feature=youtu.be
Financial Need
The intention of writing this blog, is not to ask for money, but we do live in a world that requires money, so I would like to share my needs with you.
My current financial need is $900, this is towards the 5 week seminar. I have bought a one way ticked to Kona, because I don’t want to put a limit on God as I have done in the past. If I am to do an outreach abroad I would need anywhere between $700 and $3500. I will post an update on this when I know.
I am also looking at returning home post lecture, and then doing a Bible Core Course (BCC) school in Switzerland and the Middle East beginning in the fall. If I am to return home, I will be working and fundraising towards this. The approximate cost is $8500.
I am able to do some fundraising in Kona as well. I have such a strong faith that God desires for me to do this, and that I do not need to worry about the finances.
If your heart tells you to give, please do. Your giving echoes in eternity. I commit myself to being a good steward of your giving.
I have created a FundRazr on my facebook page, and will be adding it to this Blog page. Easy online donations can be made that way or Cheques can be mailed to:
Alicia Borsoi
32358 Golden ave
Abbotsford B.C.
V2T 5A9
With Much Love and Joy in Serving Jesus,
Alicia Louisa
