~The words of the Battlefield of my Mind, and the Ache of my Heart~

Thank You Abba for your merciful love,
Thank You Jesus that you shed your blood for me,
Thank You Holy Spirit that you are with me always.

Friday, March 30, 2012

I'm Not Lost...


I’m Not Lost…

I’m not lost,
Why can’t you see?
I’ve found the greatest thing worth living for!
I’ve found the secret key to unlock every chain!
His name is Love,
His name is Wisdom,
His name is Power,
His name is Hope,
His name is Kindness,
His name is Longsuffering,
His name is Patience,
His name is Joy,
His name is Peace,
His name is Jesus.

He took me,
When I was nothing,
And He made me new
He took my dirt stained ashes,
And created a glorious garden!

Why must you continue to push me towards happiness?
Don’t you see that I’ve found it?
Don’t you see that my joy is in my heart and cannot be stolen from me?
Why would I look for happiness in this world?
When I’ve already found the only thing worth giving my life for?
I would endure the hardships over and over again,
If it would help you see,
If it would help you know,
The Peace that I have found.

I was naïve to think that the world would understand,
This joy in Jesus,
If I had studied the scriptures studiously,
I would have seen more clearly,
That Jesus, fully human and fully God
Was rejected by man,
If I had paid attention, I too would have seen,
That to follow Jesus,
Would lead to the same fate for me.

How could I be so silly to think,
That following Jesus would be understood
By those eyes that are blind,
and the ears that cannot hear.
What love is greater than that of our Heavenly Father?
That no matter what it takes,
No matter the offense,
It is a love that leads to an eternal life,
With King Jesus

There is no greater purpose in which to live for.

Cry out for the Sound of Heaven


[petition to the Lord]

Oh Lord,
I am not worthy
I am not worthy
To receive your call
To follow you
To know you in intimacy
To praise you as Highest King
Lord of Lords,
King of Kings,

You have made me worthy,
By your Grace,
By the Blood of Jesus,
How you love me so,
How you come and
Cleanse me from my sins
You wash away all the
Stains and ugliness,
You lead me beside still waters
You restore my soul
You make all things new

I am not worthy to be yours
I am not worthy to suffer for you
I sell my birthright for a piece of food
Lord you have so much mercy on me

Lord, your name
Is above all names
You are the one
To be exalted above all else
Just a taste of your power
Is more than we can bare

Lord do away with the performers
Call forth your worshippers,
Do away with the music of Lucifer
We call forth the music
Of the throne of God,
Send your heavenly messengers
To the saints,
That we may bare the music of your throne
On earth
As it is in Heaven

Let us glorify you
King of Kings
Worship the one
and only True God

Do away with the
Clanging symbols and noisy gongs
That tear apart your heart oh Lord

Teach us Father,
The sound that is pleasing to
Your ears
Tell us oh Lord, what do you think?
What do you want us to sing?
What is the sound
You want to hear?
Oh Lord send us the
Sound of heaven

Purify us,
Cleanse us,
Renew us,
Teach us your ways oh God,
We long to please you.

Lord, if you only you would come
With your spirit, your grace
Anoint us with Love
For one another
Anoint us with fasting,
For your sound
Anoint us with
A passion and zeal
For your house

Your name will be
Re-established on the earth
You will once again be put
In your rightful place
You will once again be exalted
Above all others
Alpha , Omega
Beginning and End
The one,
Who sits on the Throne

In Jesus precious name,
Amen

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Praise you in the Morning Lord!


Lift up your eyes, discouraged one,
The Lord your help will be;
New Strength will come from Him who said,
"For rest, come unto Me." - Anon

The Lord really touched my heart with this, this morning.
Lord, each time you weed my heart and put the roots deeper it is painful, but I am full of Thanksgiving that in your mercy and grace you care enough to discipline me and teach me your ways so that I may know you more, be completely dependent on your ways and live life abundantly. I love you Lord. Amen
Psalm 119:65-72

65. You have dealt well with your servant,
O Lord, according to your word,
66.Teach me good judgment and knowledge,
for I believe in your commandments,
67.Before I was afflicted I went astray,
but now I keep your word.
68. You are good and do good;
teach me your statues.
69. The insolent smear me with lies,
but with my whole heart I keep your precepts;
70. their heart is unfeeling like fat,
but I delight in your law.
71. It is good for me that I was afflicted,
that I might learn your statutes.
72. The law of your mouth is better to me
than thousands of gold and silver pieces.

May God Bless your day today!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

The King is Coming!


I saw the man made walls,
they shook,
they fell,
Then the Lord spoke and this is what I heard;
[to the Body of Christ]

Prepare the way of the Lord,

A voice crying out in the wilderness,

The King is Coming!
The King is Coming!
This is the one we have been
Waiting for!
He is Risen!
He is Alive!
He dwells among us!
He is coming to take us home!
Prepare the way!
Fill with Oil!
Dance for the King!
Celebrate the Kings arrival!
The precious cornerstone has
Laid His foundation!
Upon Him we build our church!
The gates of Hades will not Prevail
He is Alive!
Jesus is Alive!
Celebrate all you worshippers!
Celebrate the coming of the King!

Sing Praises,
Day and Night!
Time to take off the
Cloak of mourning!
Time to celebrate!
The beauty of the King
Is Indescribable!
He is Coming!

Awake oh sleepers!
The time of celebration
Is near!
He will wipe every tear
From our eyes!
We give the Lord highest praise!
We give Him our first fruits!
All belong to the Lord!
He is coming!
Believe!

Jesus has risen!
He is Alive!
He is housed inside of you!
Awake oh Sleepers!
Remove the scales from your eyes
And the cotton from your ears
See
Hear

The King is coming
He will take His rightful place
All His enemies are crushed under his feet!
The King has come!
The King has prepared the feast!
Dance!
Put on your best clothes!
Adorn yourself with Jewels
Like a bride!
Bride, get ready, for
Your wedding day is near!

The Lord has spoken!
The appointed day is near!
The King is coming!
Prepare the way!
I will loose your tongues
I will open the eyes of the blind
I will open the ears of the deaf
Prepare the way!

The day of Redemption is near!
The day of Repentance is here!
Confess all you sleepers, return
To your first love!
I am here!
I am near!
Listen to the prophets of old and new!
I am here!
I am near!
Praise the Lord all you souls!

Praise the Lord!

A Hug from the Lord




Something has shifted today,
It feels like spring,
not only in the natural with
the shining sun,
but in my heart,
has the season finally changed?
From a long cold lonesome
dark winter,
into a fresh new spring?
Is this a taste of the season to come?

I asked the Lord for
a hug,
a hug so filled with love
that my entire being would
be overflowed with warmth
and deep love.

I have no one here to
give me that kind of love
So the Lord himself,
Came to me in my
restless sleep,
my confusing dreams
and gave me a hug.

So filled with His
great love,
I woke up,
and felt in love,
I don't remember the
last time I felt
that way, maybe once,
perhaps never,
perhaps as a child,
innocent
of the worlds ugliness.

I asked the Lord for
many things yesterday,
12 pages worth to
be exact,

But Him and His ways,
He came to show me who
He is,
Above everything else,
He is LOVE

Has The Storm of My Heart Finally Ended?...


...Or is this just the eye of the hurricane?

I want to share more of my heart again in this journal, I want others to read about my journey in hopes of encouraging them in theirs. I have been through so much in such a short time, so much I didn't understand, I could not even formulate words to write it. I was afraid to share in case I seemed too crazy, too eccentric, or too radical. My heart burns with my love for the Lord and I am never sure how to share it. In person, my 'humanness' always seems to get in the way, my insecurities or my selfish desires. It is from that place that I realized I must go back to what I can do well, I can write, it's not perfect, but it is the best way I can express my heart.

I am going to try to be as honest as possible in these writings, I want to truly express what I am walking through with the Lord, in hopes that the Father's Love may show through everything I write, even the hurts, sorrows, brokenness, anger, bitterness, confusion and chaos. As much as I try to hide from those things, they are in fact, a part of this life, and I will endure them for a time until eternity, when I will never experience any of those things ever again. It is time for me to head out on the road again and I await the Lord's instructions.

The Lord has given me a title for this next season, which by the Lord's grace may be a book one day...He called it "Choosing to Be Chosen". We all have an eternal purpose, and I pray as I seek the Lord in mine, that you too may find yours.

Love Always,

Alicia

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Live


Live,

With the grace of woman, not the grief of a child;
And learn to build all your roads on today because
Tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way of falling down mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that your really can endure;
That you really are strong
And you really have worth;
And you learn and learn…
With every goodbye, you learn.

-unknown

[wisdom passed on from Grandma to Mama to Me]

The Vision - Pete Grieg



Isaiah 29:18
In that day the deaf will hear the words of the scroll, and out of gloom and darkness the eyes of the blind will see.

Isaiah 32:3
Then the eyes of those who see will no longer be closed, and the ears of those who hear will listen.

Mark 4:9
Then Jesus said, "He who has ears to hear, let him hear."

Revelation 2:7
He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who conquers I will grant to eat of the the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God. [Rev 2:11, 2:17, 2:29, 3:6, 3:13, 3:22, 13:9]



The Words of the Vision.... – By Pete Grieg


So this guy comes up to me and says,
“What’s the vision? What’s the big idea?”
I opened my mouth, and the words came out like this…

The vision?

The vision is JESUS – obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.

The vision is an army of young people. You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism.

They laugh at 9-5 little prisons.
They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday.
They wouldn't even notice.
They Know the meaning of Matrix,
The way the west was won.
They are mobile like the wind,
They belong to the nations,
They need no passport.

People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange exsistance.
They are free,
yet they are slaves
of the hurting and dirty and dying.

What is the vision ?
The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.
It makes children laugh and adults angry.
It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars.
It scorns the good and strains for the best.
It is dangerously pure.

Light flickers from every secret motive,
every private conversation.
It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games.
This is an army
that will lay down its life for the cause.
A million times a day its soldiers
choose to lose
that they might one day win
the great 'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters.

Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night.
They...

... don't need fame from names.
Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again:
"COME ON!"

And this is the sound of the underground
The whisper of history in the making
Foundations shaking
Revolutionaries dreaming once again
Mystery is scheming in whispers
Conspiracy is breathing…
This is the sound of the underground

And the army is discipl(in)ed.

Young people who beat their bodies into submission.

Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their back boasts
"for me to live is Christ and to die is gain".

Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes.
Winners.
Martyrs.
Who can stop them ?
Can hormones hold them back?
Can failure succeed?
Can fear scare them or death kill them ?

And the generation prays

like a dying man
with groans beyond talking,
with warrior cries, sulphuric tears and
with great barrow loads of laughter!
Waiting. Watching: 24 – 7 – 365.

Whatever it takes they will give:
Breaking the rules.
Shaking mediocrity from its cosy little hide.
Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs,
laughing at labels,
fasting essentials.
The advertisers cannot mould them.
Hollywood cannot hold them.
Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries.

They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive (on the inside).

On the outside?
They hardly care!
They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide.
Would they surrender their image or their popularity?
They would lay down their very lives - swap seats with the man on death row - guilty as hell.
A throne for an electric chair.

With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days, they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.

Their words make demons scream in shopping centres.
Don't you hear them coming?
Herald the weirdo's! Summon the losers and the freaks.
Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes.
They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension.
Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden.

And this vision will be.
It will come to pass;
it will come easily;
it will come soon.

How do I know?
Because the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very
Dream of
God.
My tomorrow is His today.
My distant hope is His 3 – D.
And my feeble,
Whispered,
Faithless prayer
Invokes a thunderous,
Resound
Bone-shaking
Great “Amen”
From countless angels,
From heroes of the faith,
From Christ Himself.
And He is the original dreamer,
The ultimate winner.
Guaranteed.

-Pete Greig.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Ballad - First Line of Defense Called



I’m ready,
365 days
Of counting the cost,
As far as I am able to see,
The price I will pay to continue on the journey with Jesus
To gain nothing of this world,
But to see Kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven.

Oh Lord,
Please show me heaven,

I ignore the battle in my mind
And listen to the spirit.
I hear,
It’s time,
It’s time to Go,

My Father see’s me,
He says I’m beautiful,
My Father knows me,
He’s counted every hair on my head,
My Father never leaves me,
He’s sent His comforter to fill every empty place,
My Father never forsakes me,
Because His love never fails,
I am His Daughter,
Daughter of the King

He covers us with the blood of Jesus,
He clothes us in armor,
Helmet of Salvation,
Breastplate of Righteousness,
Belt of Truth,
Sandals of the Gospel of Peace,
The Shield of Faith
And the Sword,
Of the Spirit,

Every moment matters,
We are trained for war,
We are strong,
In body,
In mind,
In spirit,
Because our God is
The Great
I AM

We will be Strong,
We will be Courageous,
We will have Faith,
We are covered in Grace,
Clothed in Righteousness,
Walking with the feet,
The hands,
The voice,
The dance,
The heart,
Of Our,
King Jesus.

We are Ready
We Will Go
I Will Go,
To prepare the way of our Coming King.
Jesus,

He is the Call,
He is the Way,
He is the Light,
He is the Truth,
Our hearts are one with His,
Now
And Forever More.

We love you Lord,
We live to honor you,
We give our lives fully to you,
Take it all,
Leave no bone dry,
Fill us with your living water,
As we serve your Holy Name,
As we honor and glorify you,
In all that we do

Keep our eyes fixed,
On the one and only true God,
King of Kings and Lord of Lords,
We put no other before you,
Our hearts are burning,
A Holy fire,
To make the way for the King,
Lord, let your Glory fall,
That all would be saved,
That all would know your love

We love you,
We love you Lord,
Let our lives be a pleasing sacrifice to you,

Amen